6 months ago

by lulu on November 6, 2014

IMG_5864I’ve started, and restarted, this post about five times now because nothing I’m about to say is easy. I think I just need to jump in.

Six months ago I lost one of the people I look up to most.  She was a role model, a leader, a friend, and she was one hell of a person. This person’s name is Jen and one of my mom’s best friends and I was lucky because I had the chance to get to know the side of Jen that most people didn’t get to experience. She was there for me, or really anyone, at the drop of a hat. She was there for a good laugh, a good time, and most of all a helping hand. We lost Jen to bile duct cancer, an aggressive cancer where there was little chance to fight. But Jen still fought. She fought and kept joking to the very end.1600976_10151983595119582_2127827556_n

It’s been six months and not a day goes by where I don’t think about her. I think about the times we had, the long phone calls about girl drama or absolutely nothing, or how every time I saw her she pointed out how I’d grown up – which started the term BGU, a baby grown up. I think about the sayings she gave me, the times we spent telling stories, thinking about how someday we’d go to Paris, the crazy things teenage girls do, or the stupid things boys say. In the time she’s been gone I still think about all the things we did or said we were going to do. Talking about her, or thinking about her brings a smile to my face. I know she’s up there watching me and cheering me on.

I looked up to Jen. She was and always will be my role model. I connected so well with her because she and I were so alike. We don’t take shit from anyone, we’re both anxious people and we care about others. IMG_0617

I miss you, Jen.

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Alex November 6, 2014 at 2:48 pm

This is a beautiful post, Lulu. I send love to you all every day, because losing someone is always hard. She’d be really proud of who you are and what you’re doing now 🙂


lulu November 6, 2014 at 9:25 pm

Thank you Alex! Please come visit the Gingerbread house!


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